I was cruising through my good friend Loreth Anne White’s blog yesterday afternoon and came across her Royal Victoria Marathon (RVM) pictures for 2005. It was great to see her dogged determination showing through in all the snaps, but it did make me a bit melancholy as I was training for the 2006 RVM, but never did run it.
Tons of stuff was happening that summer, but what I remember most was my mom making the decision to stop chemotherapy and me running. And running. And running. I’m not sure if the two are connected, but I can’t help but wonder.
At any rate, I never got to the marathon. My knee started giving me some major grief and while I was (mostly) clueless at the time as to why, now I know what happened. It’s a little thing called “overtraining” or what I call, “too far, too fast.” One cannot be a treadmill runner for 30 minutes at a time, hop off and decide to do a marathon within the next six months without repercussions. My repercussion was my knee. Sadly, I let it be a four year repercussion as I never did get back to hitting those long distance runs again.
The HEA (Happily Ever After) to this tale though, is that that has changed. I’m back on course and you’ll see a new tracker pop up on the side as I start marking my mileage. I’ve started out slow this time…so slow that I’m doing a lot more walking than running it seems…but this grasshopper is exercising her patience, too.
I’ve been sorely tempted to sign myself up for the 2010 RVM this fall, but mostly because the date is 10-10-10 and the numbers are SO irresistible. Thus far, I’ve managed to hold myself back. Really it’s not too hard. I only have to remind myself that I’m running for myself and not my ego. There is no medal or finish line that can beat the quiet satisfaction of marking off the miles on one’s own. Self awareness really is so much more than the applause of strangers.
So with that consideration, at some point in the next year or two, there will be a quiet post about how on some Sunday I will have quietly passed 26.2 miles on some obscure path and from there I will just keep on running.
Until then and after that, Happy Trails!